lovely morning!!!

smlm col someone dlm kul 4 lebih mcm tue. then when i col him dye mcm mrah. dun noe why he suddenly change mcm tue.sbb before dat adew jmpe lepak skali mkn2 kt kdai mkn bwah tue.hemph. then after col him ak text message to him dgn mengatakn
"sory awk if sy adew bwat silap dgn awk" ak.
then dye senyap xckp pape pown.
suddenly dye text me back
"npe tdi??" someonea
"npe?? xdew pape!! ak
"busy" someone
"ha'ah busy!! ak
"xpe la.sory ggu" someone
then dye col burak2 jp tpi mybe i yg lebih2 kowt dtas why after that col dye xangkt..
hemph xpew larh awk..
then mlm col xangkt2 smpi rse nk g tmpt yg dye stay now and mrah knape dye xpick up my col..
then around 11.30 baru angkt dye bleh ckp sory xbwak fon
around 5 am he col me syg.
arghhhh. so sweet..
continue nnti..
daaaaaaaaaaa.

hal dye lg!!!

smakin hari smakin mnjadi lak hubungan ak ngan dye neyh.xtau knpe ko jdi sebegini skali..ak cube utk mmperbaiki blk apew yg dh trjadi tpi ko slalu push ak soh mcm tue soh cmni..ak dh bwat yg sehabis baek mungkin utk our relation..tpi still xbleh go on lg. tlg larh brubah ke arah yg lebih bagus dari hari neyh..
mmg ak syukur dgn perubahan yg ko tunjuk kn skrg tpi ak xrse yakin dgn apew yg ko bwat skrg..prangai ko mnjadi2 skrg.. bkn brtmbh baek tpi mnjadi lebih truk dari sblm neyh..
tlg larh fahami diri ak wahai lelaki..
wat a bad day..smua org mcm nk mrah2 ngan ak..
damn!!!

everyone adew problem tersendiri..

mcm2 hal happen today.
dgn class nyer,dpt kwan baru lg.
hapy+saket dgn apew yg trjadi dgn hari neyh & semalam..
smlm nmpk benda yg xptt ak nmpk.. and ak dh ready dgn smua neyh. ak dh ckup ready dgn apew yg terjadi smlm.. wlupown skjap tpi adew rase nyer babe.. tpi tgk dorg brckp smlm nmpk cm sweet jerw. xpew larh kena accept larh dgn apew yg dh trjadi smlm. then ptg ckit g karaoke with all my fren wlupown baru baek dari saket.
hapy sgt sbb dpt bilik BESAR. hahahahahahaha. berlari2 ak kt dlm tue.
hapy larh xtau nk described cmne dgn keadaan smlm.
lovely jerw hari smlm.
cume hari neyh rse xhappy sbb dgr crita mcm2 dari kwan2.
adew yg brkwan tpi iri hati, padahal brkwan mcm nk gler tpi rupe2 nyer adew something yg di lindung kn dlm diri dye..
we as a fren shud be honest if adew something yg rse kurg senang..
for me, if brkwan tpi still adew prasaan kurang elok tue bwak2 larh brbincang..
jgn nk pendam2.
sbb kte kwan.special mcm mne pown org laen nk treat kwan kte tue biarkan larh.
kte sbgi kwan ptt rase senang ble kte tgk kwan kte hapy & senang dgn keadaan dye skrg.. no matter wat happen ak harap xdew larh kwan2 ak yg brkwan dgn ak skrg adew prangai mcm neyh.hope smua nyer okayh. tlong larh brubah wahai kwan ku yg bwat kwan ku tue.. apew pown keindahan yg smlm diberikan hanyalah sementara..

problems come again.

XLARAT dh nk menanggung hati & perassan yg saket..
XLARAT dh nk pkir2 & rase dgn apew yg lelaki wat kt diri kita
XLARAT nk hadap semua ble hati & perasaan kte sendiri dpermainkan dgn senang..
XLARAT bila ak sorg trpakse tanggung & lalui benda neyh sendiri..
XLARAT nmpk & dpt msg mengatakan yg dye dgn gf dy..
XLARAT bila trpakse pretend yg sebenar nyer kte neyh okayh padahal hati saket sgt bila dpt tau..
smua neyh hanya larh perasaan kte bila kita adew perasaan terhadap seseorg
tpi ble kte dh dpt hope yg tggi kenapa dorg neyh ske sgt pergi mcm tue jerw then bwat2 mcm xkenal..
wat he fuck arr..
bkn larh ak neyh hadap sgt dgn apew yg ko bg tpi ko ptt phm dgn apew yg kita lalui wlupown skjap tpi kesan dye amat brmkne..
still remember with all those words yg awk slalu sgt ckp ngan sy after bgun dari tdo n sblm tdo..
keindahan yg awk xkn sy dpt dari mnew2 org selain awk..
sy tau awk dh brpunya tpi sometymes hope yg awk bg menyeksakn diri saya & sy trpaksa tggung bnda neyh sorg2 tnpa awk..
knape suddenly bnda neyh happen to us..
tlg larh jadi blk diri awk yg dlu..
our relation neyh sgt2 hancurkn friendship kte before dis..
sy nyesal gler ble adew prasaan mcm neyh ngan awk..
thanks for all the happiness yg awk bg kt saya yg dh nk hampir sbulan..
thank you ASy...

heshh dun noe nk write pew lg!!

dri last week lg mcm2 hal jadi xtau pehal ngan ak.
a lot of thing happen to me. feel sad dgn kematian one of my dad fren
cannot described the feeling from the day yg happen to him until the day yg mmbawa dye ke sana..
big2 problem also happen to me on the same day.
dgn dye & gf dye nyer hal, ngan ak yg rse mcm still xteratur xterurus dgn semester baru.
mcm2 hal berlaku xtau mcm mnew nk handle all dis sorg2.
sometymes we try to help others eventhough dye bwat hal ngan ak tpi org yg xmemahami kehendak ak mmg sukar nk trima dgn apew yg ak nk bwat or tolong dorg..
bkn xnk share spew yg bwat hal and make me become like dis.
cume xnk aib kn org.
only certain2 peps yg noe bout dis.
im trying to give the best for him and you.
hard to handle alone all dis matter.
nk share ngan org takowt org ckp yg ak neyh always dew probs, always nk story hal2 mcm neyh takowt adew sesetgh org yg xbleh trima bnda neyh.
for me hal yg ak dpt today sgt bg impak yg besar kt ak wlupown adew org xtau n nk ak always laugh with them..
hal xkn berlaku klu adew prsefahamn antara dua2 org tue..
its okayh im trying the best to settle all this.
and try to trima all the coming bad words from her!
hope dye lebih trbuka dari skarg sbb ak rase ko lg matang dari ak umur pown dh 22 years old.jgn nk slalu sgt maen kn hati org..
jgn nk ugut2 org dgn hal2 mcm mnew ko bwat kt lelaki tue..
utk ko ak just nk pesan klu betol apew yg ko adew skarg neyh adalah kepunyaan, tanggungjawab dye ko tunjuk kn bukti yg dye btol2 kena tanggung bnda neyh..
klu ko dh test everything and menunjukkn yg tue adalah hak dye yessss ak lepaskn dye utk satu tggjwab yg besar utk diri ko and the new comers..
ko nursing and u shud know about this matter..
think twice klu nk bwat org mcm tue!!!!

he's mistake or my mistake..

always argue bout small thing.
sometymes happy but sometymes hate it.
fedup everything smua adew.
tpi mish gler ble alwys kena marah or gado bnda2 yg xptt di ckpkn..
dye always rse yg ak xptt jadi diri ak skrg tpi ak rse yg dye xske the way that i behave ryte now..
heheheh.
wan amirul aizat please understand bout my self..
now i mention ur name..
mish u and cant wait to meet up with u..
but for this 1weeks anything can happen kn dear!!
ermmm..
sory for all that happen to you this 3 weeks.
im glad to see u..
sometimes jerw yg fedup ngan u..
hhahahahhahahaha..
jgn mrh..
imyfdsm my dear..
u always said to me "smua org pena bwat salah, tpi skali kte dh bwat slah take advantage dgn apew kte da bwat silap"..
tol x???
heheheh. i akn cbe pew yg terbaek utk relation kte yg xtau apew2..
thanks and cant wait to see u..

hapy!!

now mybe dh almost 1month dh kwan ngan dye..
im happy with him.
really hapy..
cume sometimes adew gak argue about small thing.
mish him.
always count the day for next week..
hapy.cannt described the happiness yg dapat dari dye bg.
thanks to him..