why suddenly you change?!?

everything yg jadi today spoil my day when someone suddenly col me and mcm bad mood ngan i today. i dun noe why..ak mnjadi lebih sedih ble dye ckp "ske larh hati" dgn nada yg ak rse ckup menyakitkn hati. for me dye seorg yg baek hati mybe dye adew probs trsendiri thats might be happen like dis. i am so sad dgn apew yg trjadi hari neyh. lgsg xdew mood dari tghari tdi until now.. for me he is everything to me. a very2 gud friends for me.
i dun wanna lost him. but i rse he never understand apew yg ak lalui sndiri wlupown depan mata dye sndiri. knpe u bwat mcm neyh??? dgn pew yg trjadi arie neyh sy cbe lebih tabah kn diri utk awk.. ak jadi lebih xtentu arah ble ptg bnda neyh mnjadi2 lebih teruk ble dye col.. xtau nk share mcm mnew lg. ckup larh hanya ak dan dia jerw yg tau..
my dear im so sory for everything. i doakan yg teerbaek utk you and your gf..
i akn sentiasa doakn yg terbaek for both of you..
take gud care of ur gf..
hope dye pown akn jage awk dgn lebih baek.. xske tgk org laen saketkn awk wlupown sy baru kenal awk tpi sy xske tgk org bwat awk mcm tue..
hope dye xmcm2 ngan awk..
loveyoumore my dear!!!

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then after that dye lgsg mcm xnk lyan ak.
asl ewk dye mcm tue.
ak cbe untk jadi kwan yg trbaek tapi dye mybe xphm. ak cube nk jadi gf trbaek tpi dye jugak xphm. now he never pick up my col.dun noe apew yg happen ryte now between me and dye. mish the way he talk with me mcm dlu, mish the way he sing to me before i sleep, mish he said 'loveyoumore' before and after i sleep, mish dye smile kt ak, everything yg dye bg kt ak slame ak brkwan dgn dye adalah keindahan yg xkn dpt kt mnew2.
huh!! sedih lak ttbe. tpi sometyme tgk dye mcm okayh.why my dear.why???? why u do like dis to me?? i xptt adew feeling mcm neyh ngan u dear. hate all dis coz im alone to get through all dis. i really mish u yg dlu, yg i dew probs u always give advice to me to help me too be cool on dat situation.. npew suddenly u change. i xphm sgt npew u jadi mcm neyh. i neyh slalu susah kn u kerw??
i really need u now. u leh lak kuar tpi u ckp u tdow kt umah. what the hell is going on with us ryte now??
could u tell me why all dis happen to us??
plss come and talk to me personally about ur problems..
i bleh phm.please~~

lovely morning!!!

smlm col someone dlm kul 4 lebih mcm tue. then when i col him dye mcm mrah. dun noe why he suddenly change mcm tue.sbb before dat adew jmpe lepak skali mkn2 kt kdai mkn bwah tue.hemph. then after col him ak text message to him dgn mengatakn
"sory awk if sy adew bwat silap dgn awk" ak.
then dye senyap xckp pape pown.
suddenly dye text me back
"npe tdi??" someonea
"npe?? xdew pape!! ak
"busy" someone
"ha'ah busy!! ak
"xpe la.sory ggu" someone
then dye col burak2 jp tpi mybe i yg lebih2 kowt dtas why after that col dye xangkt..
hemph xpew larh awk..
then mlm col xangkt2 smpi rse nk g tmpt yg dye stay now and mrah knape dye xpick up my col..
then around 11.30 baru angkt dye bleh ckp sory xbwak fon
around 5 am he col me syg.
arghhhh. so sweet..
continue nnti..
daaaaaaaaaaa.

hal dye lg!!!

smakin hari smakin mnjadi lak hubungan ak ngan dye neyh.xtau knpe ko jdi sebegini skali..ak cube utk mmperbaiki blk apew yg dh trjadi tpi ko slalu push ak soh mcm tue soh cmni..ak dh bwat yg sehabis baek mungkin utk our relation..tpi still xbleh go on lg. tlg larh brubah ke arah yg lebih bagus dari hari neyh..
mmg ak syukur dgn perubahan yg ko tunjuk kn skrg tpi ak xrse yakin dgn apew yg ko bwat skrg..prangai ko mnjadi2 skrg.. bkn brtmbh baek tpi mnjadi lebih truk dari sblm neyh..
tlg larh fahami diri ak wahai lelaki..
wat a bad day..smua org mcm nk mrah2 ngan ak..
damn!!!

everyone adew problem tersendiri..

mcm2 hal happen today.
dgn class nyer,dpt kwan baru lg.
hapy+saket dgn apew yg trjadi dgn hari neyh & semalam..
smlm nmpk benda yg xptt ak nmpk.. and ak dh ready dgn smua neyh. ak dh ckup ready dgn apew yg terjadi smlm.. wlupown skjap tpi adew rase nyer babe.. tpi tgk dorg brckp smlm nmpk cm sweet jerw. xpew larh kena accept larh dgn apew yg dh trjadi smlm. then ptg ckit g karaoke with all my fren wlupown baru baek dari saket.
hapy sgt sbb dpt bilik BESAR. hahahahahahaha. berlari2 ak kt dlm tue.
hapy larh xtau nk described cmne dgn keadaan smlm.
lovely jerw hari smlm.
cume hari neyh rse xhappy sbb dgr crita mcm2 dari kwan2.
adew yg brkwan tpi iri hati, padahal brkwan mcm nk gler tpi rupe2 nyer adew something yg di lindung kn dlm diri dye..
we as a fren shud be honest if adew something yg rse kurg senang..
for me, if brkwan tpi still adew prasaan kurang elok tue bwak2 larh brbincang..
jgn nk pendam2.
sbb kte kwan.special mcm mne pown org laen nk treat kwan kte tue biarkan larh.
kte sbgi kwan ptt rase senang ble kte tgk kwan kte hapy & senang dgn keadaan dye skrg.. no matter wat happen ak harap xdew larh kwan2 ak yg brkwan dgn ak skrg adew prangai mcm neyh.hope smua nyer okayh. tlong larh brubah wahai kwan ku yg bwat kwan ku tue.. apew pown keindahan yg smlm diberikan hanyalah sementara..

problems come again.

XLARAT dh nk menanggung hati & perassan yg saket..
XLARAT dh nk pkir2 & rase dgn apew yg lelaki wat kt diri kita
XLARAT nk hadap semua ble hati & perasaan kte sendiri dpermainkan dgn senang..
XLARAT bila ak sorg trpakse tanggung & lalui benda neyh sendiri..
XLARAT nmpk & dpt msg mengatakan yg dye dgn gf dy..
XLARAT bila trpakse pretend yg sebenar nyer kte neyh okayh padahal hati saket sgt bila dpt tau..
smua neyh hanya larh perasaan kte bila kita adew perasaan terhadap seseorg
tpi ble kte dh dpt hope yg tggi kenapa dorg neyh ske sgt pergi mcm tue jerw then bwat2 mcm xkenal..
wat he fuck arr..
bkn larh ak neyh hadap sgt dgn apew yg ko bg tpi ko ptt phm dgn apew yg kita lalui wlupown skjap tpi kesan dye amat brmkne..
still remember with all those words yg awk slalu sgt ckp ngan sy after bgun dari tdo n sblm tdo..
keindahan yg awk xkn sy dpt dari mnew2 org selain awk..
sy tau awk dh brpunya tpi sometymes hope yg awk bg menyeksakn diri saya & sy trpaksa tggung bnda neyh sorg2 tnpa awk..
knape suddenly bnda neyh happen to us..
tlg larh jadi blk diri awk yg dlu..
our relation neyh sgt2 hancurkn friendship kte before dis..
sy nyesal gler ble adew prasaan mcm neyh ngan awk..
thanks for all the happiness yg awk bg kt saya yg dh nk hampir sbulan..
thank you ASy...