xpenting pown!!

today dh masuk 2days practical.hemph.so far so okayh jerw smua.mybe ak yg xtahan dgn situation mcm tue.early in the morning msti texting someone utk bg diri rse lebih semangat nk teruskn bnda2 mcmtue. ak cbe utk abis kn smua nyer dgn baek. mish you QLQ..even always contact but hati still rse jauh.haishhh!!! kosong jerw hati neyh. rse kekecewaan. baru skrg nk rse bnda mcm tue smua. arghhhhh!! empty gler hati. lgsg xjln pape. hati,mind always igt something yg mmg xleh lpe. ssh went we ade hati and mind yg bodo neyh. semangat larh. hnya tuhan yg tau hati aku & dia. IMYFDSM QLQ..

new year, new things, new problems, everythgs new!!

new year already coming. trying to make things jadi lebih bagus dari smua aspect. thnx to god sbb still bg ruang utk ak rse kn sedikit kbhgian.ak cube utk ubah everythg yg bad from all the mistake that i did.let the rain wash away all the mistake yesterday and hari2 sblm tue. i really hope i can be the best for him. i really regret for wat did i've done. enjoy and trying to settle that sadness by doing cara mcm tue adlh slh & is no the rite way to sttle all our problem.. bnda jadi lg teruk.ak really2 regret dgn apew yg ak dh buat the whole year yg sblm neyh..
the best things is im going 21 years old.wohooo.. mcm nk shout to whole world ..
rse kgembiraan yg amat sgt.heheheheh..but im still same. bad!! but you are always have a place in my heart! thnx for all. really appreciate. xtau nk ckp mcm mnew the happiness yg awk bg kt sy. only me,you and god know about our feelings and happiness that tyme. thnx dear.eventhough u only aggp org as a fren but org still rse the feelings. IM TOO HAPPY FOR THATTTT!!! THNX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( LOVE YOU QLQ

maafkan aku!!

hari2 dh ku usaha kn utk kembali mcm dulu. tpi nothings happen!! why dye lgsg xbg ak peluang utk tebus blk smua slah ak yg ak bwat dkt diri dye. dh hmpir 2 mggu dye pegi dari diri ak. wlupown xdew any special relation ak ngan dye tpi ak syukur sbb dye adew utk hargai, kasih, syg diri ak yg lgsg xpernah dihargai smua tue. syukur dgn apew yg adew dpan mata ak. tpi kesyukuran tue tiba2 hilang sekelip mata.. dgn suddenly dye pegi mcm tue jerw. ak xpernah salahkn dye dgn apew yg trjadi smggu yg lalu. hanya tuhan jerw yg tau betapa ssh nyer hati & diri ak utk terima bnda neyh smua. knpe smua nih?? kenapa dye kata yg ak tpo dye?? knpe tuhan?? knpe?? ak dh ckup lemah usaha utk dptkn dye blk tpi lgsg xdew peluang tue. xtau mcm mnew lg ak nk bwat utk kembalikan kepercayaan dye dkat diri aku blk..
sedih & saket nyer hati ble tgk dye tnpa bleh sentuh dye mcm dulu.
tnpa dpt hugs and kisses mcm dlu.
tnpa dpt panggil 'syg' mcm dulu.
tnpa dpt bau2 diri dye mcm dlu.
tnpa dpt ckp 'sy syg awk'
tnpa dpt dgr dye pggl 'temok' mcm dulu..
tnpa dgr dye pggl syg mcm dulu
mybe ak harus sedar dulu spew diri ak.
xtau dh nk ckp syg kt dye mcm mnew.
smua yg ak bwat smua trigt kt dye..
pegi mnew2 smua trigt pesan dye..
ape lg yg ak harus bwat utk kembalikn kpercayaan dye kt ak???
ak brdoa tuhan agar dye segera kembali kepada diri ak!!
ak berdoa!! ak brdoa wahai tuhan!!

hati ak!!

hari aku makin lme mkin jadi huru hara dgn mcm2 masalah. busan nk lalui bnda neyh smua sndiri. ak rse kn hidup sorg2 yg lgsg xdew hala tujuan. prlu kerw ak pkir2 hal yg xptt dpkir. love kdg2 menyusahkn sbb mcm2 harus ak pkir utk jaga hati org. tpi kdg2 love bwat kita memahami setiap individu dgn sesuatu bnda yg baru. ak syukur dgn apew yg adew skrg. xperlu nk yg bagus, yg perfect, yg kaya, yg mcm2 larh dari smua aspect yg melambangkn kebagusan seseorg individu tue, ak syukur sgt dgn apew yg ak adew skrg. apew yg dh adew depan mata ak skrg pown dh terlalu ckup bagus untuk diri ak. kdg2 ak cube utk jadi yg sebaik mgkin utk dye tpi ntah larh ak pown harap yg dye akn trima ak dgn sebaik mgkin & ak harap sgt yg dye bleh trima tntg diri ak yg lalu. but if he refuse to accepted me yg dlu its okayh ak trima juga. diri ak hanya ak jerw yg pham. xperlu adew org laen utk memahami diri ak. sbb xpernah sekali pown adew org pham diri ak.mish him!!!

my day!!`

arie neyh xdew clas tpi dtg gak.busan dok umah. my day getting more much better. mybe ak dh bleh lpekn dye dlm jangka masa skrg. hapy ryte now because he always make my day full of happiness. hapy if ak always adew ngan dye. hahha.thanks for everything..

a gurl

try to understand how and why all dis happen to her as a gurl. dye xptt adew life mcm neyh.why she need to avoid all the problem by herself. why all dis suddenly come to her life when she is now happily with frens and someone. can't think about dis anymore.
try to kill my self.but xpernah nk mnjadi. hope tomorrow and hari2 slepas neyh mnjadi lebih bagus dari apew yg happen skrg..

qila dias...

he said im look ocean today.hahaha