i hate you.

we are over.xsgka yg you can blame me like dat.how could you.
i rather to be alone dri adew kawan smua2. sbb smua mmg xkn phm diri ak neyh mcm mnew.ak nih ssh sgt nk org phm.adew kte ak sombong xbrtempat larh,adew kte ak neyh gedik larh,sial, bodo, amus adew jerw kt diri ak. mama pown slalu ckp ak ssh kn dye. ak neyh anak malang kowt..smua org xske kt ak. berkwan pown xkemana. klu baru nk hapy adew jerw yg ggu ak, xbleh nk hapy ngan spew..yesssssssss!! ak hapy ngan diri ak skrg yg alone.senang nk bawak diri sbb dh xdew spew2 kisah.nih pown sys bising.baru pnjam lapy kjap pown dekut..tggu larhak beli yg lg besar baru tau.ak beli lappy yg lg besar dari badan ak.hemph klu ak beli t ko nk pnjam jgn harap larh.to datgurl thanks for the advise and ak maafkn ko dunia akhirat even ko bwat ak mcm tue. i mish him!!!

still cant let go

hati jadi xtentu arah bila dpt tau yg org yg kte syg dh adew yg baru yg bleh happy kn dye lg. mybe she is the best for him.. thats the lumrah if jodoh dh xdew when we having a relation wit someone.. xpew larh ak kena terima larh if that things happen to me.. salah ble kte ade harapan dlm diam neyh. bwatkn hati jadi lg teruk, sengsara kn diri jerw. tpi ak selesa dgn diri ak skrg. hati neyh saket larh ttbe.xtau knpe. knpe ak xbleh nk trima org laen sedangkn bnda tue kdg2 senang jerw nk fren ngan org2 laen. ak lgsg xbleh nk mcm dlu.. org laen happy jerw ak tgk tpi ak neyh mcm haram kejadah. knape ak xbleh jadi mcm org laen yg bleh move on jerw without pndg blkg dgn apew yg dh happen to us!! fuck all this. jelek dh dgn lelaki nyer pranagi.dh xnk dh adew prasaan mcm neyh lg. kdg2 trpikir gak hati ak pulak kerw dh trtutup???? hhahahahah.funny!! this is me.now i love to walk alone, mkn alone, shopping pown alone, best do it smua bnda alone. so im trying to change the best from the best!!!

hardest things to say.

always nk ckp that things tpi mmndgkn apew yg happen now dh selesa n xnk lost him again just shut up and let it be.i really want to say that but xkluar when cll him. im trying to having relation yg baru but smua xmnjadi.and im always compare that guy with him. ak jdi meluat dgn apw yg dorg bwat even sweet things pown.sometymes always ckp tue dat new guy "awk nih xsme mcm dye larh" thats the only words yg bwat kn smua xmnjadi.ak pown xtau knpe ak slalu sgt pkir bnda tue and ckp bnda tue dgn sape2 pown.so ak decide ak nk stay mcm neyh jerw. no need to move on.
i will stay like dis. ak hapy if tgk dye smiling.heh!! sweet jerw. when dye smiling something jadi stuck and stop for a while. awesome.. i mish him.

xpenting pown!!

today dh masuk 2days practical.hemph.so far so okayh jerw smua.mybe ak yg xtahan dgn situation mcm tue.early in the morning msti texting someone utk bg diri rse lebih semangat nk teruskn bnda2 mcmtue. ak cbe utk abis kn smua nyer dgn baek. mish you QLQ..even always contact but hati still rse jauh.haishhh!!! kosong jerw hati neyh. rse kekecewaan. baru skrg nk rse bnda mcm tue smua. arghhhhh!! empty gler hati. lgsg xjln pape. hati,mind always igt something yg mmg xleh lpe. ssh went we ade hati and mind yg bodo neyh. semangat larh. hnya tuhan yg tau hati aku & dia. IMYFDSM QLQ..

new year, new things, new problems, everythgs new!!

new year already coming. trying to make things jadi lebih bagus dari smua aspect. thnx to god sbb still bg ruang utk ak rse kn sedikit kbhgian.ak cube utk ubah everythg yg bad from all the mistake that i did.let the rain wash away all the mistake yesterday and hari2 sblm tue. i really hope i can be the best for him. i really regret for wat did i've done. enjoy and trying to settle that sadness by doing cara mcm tue adlh slh & is no the rite way to sttle all our problem.. bnda jadi lg teruk.ak really2 regret dgn apew yg ak dh buat the whole year yg sblm neyh..
the best things is im going 21 years old.wohooo.. mcm nk shout to whole world ..
rse kgembiraan yg amat sgt.heheheheh..but im still same. bad!! but you are always have a place in my heart! thnx for all. really appreciate. xtau nk ckp mcm mnew the happiness yg awk bg kt sy. only me,you and god know about our feelings and happiness that tyme. thnx dear.eventhough u only aggp org as a fren but org still rse the feelings. IM TOO HAPPY FOR THATTTT!!! THNX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( LOVE YOU QLQ

maafkan aku!!

hari2 dh ku usaha kn utk kembali mcm dulu. tpi nothings happen!! why dye lgsg xbg ak peluang utk tebus blk smua slah ak yg ak bwat dkt diri dye. dh hmpir 2 mggu dye pegi dari diri ak. wlupown xdew any special relation ak ngan dye tpi ak syukur sbb dye adew utk hargai, kasih, syg diri ak yg lgsg xpernah dihargai smua tue. syukur dgn apew yg adew dpan mata ak. tpi kesyukuran tue tiba2 hilang sekelip mata.. dgn suddenly dye pegi mcm tue jerw. ak xpernah salahkn dye dgn apew yg trjadi smggu yg lalu. hanya tuhan jerw yg tau betapa ssh nyer hati & diri ak utk terima bnda neyh smua. knpe smua nih?? kenapa dye kata yg ak tpo dye?? knpe tuhan?? knpe?? ak dh ckup lemah usaha utk dptkn dye blk tpi lgsg xdew peluang tue. xtau mcm mnew lg ak nk bwat utk kembalikan kepercayaan dye dkat diri aku blk..
sedih & saket nyer hati ble tgk dye tnpa bleh sentuh dye mcm dulu.
tnpa dpt hugs and kisses mcm dlu.
tnpa dpt panggil 'syg' mcm dulu.
tnpa dpt bau2 diri dye mcm dlu.
tnpa dpt ckp 'sy syg awk'
tnpa dpt dgr dye pggl 'temok' mcm dulu..
tnpa dgr dye pggl syg mcm dulu
mybe ak harus sedar dulu spew diri ak.
xtau dh nk ckp syg kt dye mcm mnew.
smua yg ak bwat smua trigt kt dye..
pegi mnew2 smua trigt pesan dye..
ape lg yg ak harus bwat utk kembalikn kpercayaan dye kt ak???
ak brdoa tuhan agar dye segera kembali kepada diri ak!!
ak berdoa!! ak brdoa wahai tuhan!!

hati ak!!

hari aku makin lme mkin jadi huru hara dgn mcm2 masalah. busan nk lalui bnda neyh smua sndiri. ak rse kn hidup sorg2 yg lgsg xdew hala tujuan. prlu kerw ak pkir2 hal yg xptt dpkir. love kdg2 menyusahkn sbb mcm2 harus ak pkir utk jaga hati org. tpi kdg2 love bwat kita memahami setiap individu dgn sesuatu bnda yg baru. ak syukur dgn apew yg adew skrg. xperlu nk yg bagus, yg perfect, yg kaya, yg mcm2 larh dari smua aspect yg melambangkn kebagusan seseorg individu tue, ak syukur sgt dgn apew yg ak adew skrg. apew yg dh adew depan mata ak skrg pown dh terlalu ckup bagus untuk diri ak. kdg2 ak cube utk jadi yg sebaik mgkin utk dye tpi ntah larh ak pown harap yg dye akn trima ak dgn sebaik mgkin & ak harap sgt yg dye bleh trima tntg diri ak yg lalu. but if he refuse to accepted me yg dlu its okayh ak trima juga. diri ak hanya ak jerw yg pham. xperlu adew org laen utk memahami diri ak. sbb xpernah sekali pown adew org pham diri ak.mish him!!!