maafkan aku!!

hari2 dh ku usaha kn utk kembali mcm dulu. tpi nothings happen!! why dye lgsg xbg ak peluang utk tebus blk smua slah ak yg ak bwat dkt diri dye. dh hmpir 2 mggu dye pegi dari diri ak. wlupown xdew any special relation ak ngan dye tpi ak syukur sbb dye adew utk hargai, kasih, syg diri ak yg lgsg xpernah dihargai smua tue. syukur dgn apew yg adew dpan mata ak. tpi kesyukuran tue tiba2 hilang sekelip mata.. dgn suddenly dye pegi mcm tue jerw. ak xpernah salahkn dye dgn apew yg trjadi smggu yg lalu. hanya tuhan jerw yg tau betapa ssh nyer hati & diri ak utk terima bnda neyh smua. knpe smua nih?? kenapa dye kata yg ak tpo dye?? knpe tuhan?? knpe?? ak dh ckup lemah usaha utk dptkn dye blk tpi lgsg xdew peluang tue. xtau mcm mnew lg ak nk bwat utk kembalikan kepercayaan dye dkat diri aku blk..
sedih & saket nyer hati ble tgk dye tnpa bleh sentuh dye mcm dulu.
tnpa dpt hugs and kisses mcm dlu.
tnpa dpt panggil 'syg' mcm dulu.
tnpa dpt bau2 diri dye mcm dlu.
tnpa dpt ckp 'sy syg awk'
tnpa dpt dgr dye pggl 'temok' mcm dulu..
tnpa dgr dye pggl syg mcm dulu
mybe ak harus sedar dulu spew diri ak.
xtau dh nk ckp syg kt dye mcm mnew.
smua yg ak bwat smua trigt kt dye..
pegi mnew2 smua trigt pesan dye..
ape lg yg ak harus bwat utk kembalikn kpercayaan dye kt ak???
ak brdoa tuhan agar dye segera kembali kepada diri ak!!
ak berdoa!! ak brdoa wahai tuhan!!

hati ak!!

hari aku makin lme mkin jadi huru hara dgn mcm2 masalah. busan nk lalui bnda neyh smua sndiri. ak rse kn hidup sorg2 yg lgsg xdew hala tujuan. prlu kerw ak pkir2 hal yg xptt dpkir. love kdg2 menyusahkn sbb mcm2 harus ak pkir utk jaga hati org. tpi kdg2 love bwat kita memahami setiap individu dgn sesuatu bnda yg baru. ak syukur dgn apew yg adew skrg. xperlu nk yg bagus, yg perfect, yg kaya, yg mcm2 larh dari smua aspect yg melambangkn kebagusan seseorg individu tue, ak syukur sgt dgn apew yg ak adew skrg. apew yg dh adew depan mata ak skrg pown dh terlalu ckup bagus untuk diri ak. kdg2 ak cube utk jadi yg sebaik mgkin utk dye tpi ntah larh ak pown harap yg dye akn trima ak dgn sebaik mgkin & ak harap sgt yg dye bleh trima tntg diri ak yg lalu. but if he refuse to accepted me yg dlu its okayh ak trima juga. diri ak hanya ak jerw yg pham. xperlu adew org laen utk memahami diri ak. sbb xpernah sekali pown adew org pham diri ak.mish him!!!

my day!!`

arie neyh xdew clas tpi dtg gak.busan dok umah. my day getting more much better. mybe ak dh bleh lpekn dye dlm jangka masa skrg. hapy ryte now because he always make my day full of happiness. hapy if ak always adew ngan dye. hahha.thanks for everything..

a gurl

try to understand how and why all dis happen to her as a gurl. dye xptt adew life mcm neyh.why she need to avoid all the problem by herself. why all dis suddenly come to her life when she is now happily with frens and someone. can't think about dis anymore.
try to kill my self.but xpernah nk mnjadi. hope tomorrow and hari2 slepas neyh mnjadi lebih bagus dari apew yg happen skrg..

qila dias...

he said im look ocean today.hahaha

qila yrososmi zoc gnitruh ouy niaga.. :(

sory my dear. i do love you, i do mish you but i still cannot accept lg dgn pew yg happen now. i dun want you to back off now sbb i need someone to guide me to forget all the things yg happen to me. but awk btol2 kena phm with my situation sy skrg.. sy dh ckup tension dgn smua2 yg happen now. yess i shud not bother them again sbb sy sendiri akn saket blk.. sory to say sy dh paksa diri sy untuk lpekan dye tyme we together but still xbleh. he still on my mind. dlm diri sy dye masih adew lg. sy tau mmg saket hati yg teramat sgt when we like someone n kejar2 kn apew yg kte nk tpi xdpt. yeaa!! sy rse bnda tue skrg. sy xtau kenapa sy xbleh nk lupakn dye.. sy rindu kt dye awk. its hurt.. sy xnk lost awk. one day sy sendiri akn whisper kt ears awk yg i really love you.. sometymes sy pikir yg awk bkn untuk sy sbb awk trlampau baek.. sy neyh xptt bwat awk mcm neyh. sy jahat sgt sbb lgsg xphm awk nyer feeling.. yess i noe yg awk ske sy tpi sy hope awk phm with my situation skrg.. sy dh lgsg xtau nk bwat apew dh. "AA" really mish you.

people..

sometimes i wonder how it's gonna feel will my true love be true and real? will i be ready when my heart starts to fall again? my answer is : 'NO'

hari yg baru, org yg baru, kwan yg hapy, dye yg cute

hahahah.today rase hapy sbb dpt g college jmpe ngan frens smua.hehe.arie neyh dye cute wlupown nmpk mcm xkeruan.hahaha.hapy bila nmpk kwan adew dpan mata smua. but suddenly prasaan yg baru dtg dlm diri ak. tpi ak xdpt nk trima bnda neyh lg sbb dye still lg adew dlm diri ak.haha.mish him.tpi new guy neyh baek, kind, cute. tpi takot nk ckp bout dis feeling sbb nyer takot hurt lg. klu bleh jauh2 kn larh adew feeling mcm neyh ngan org laen. ak takot nk trima sbb xnk lukakn hati lelaki lg. also xnk hurt my self lg. tgk larh skrg relation ak ngan dye dh xmcm dlu. klu bleh ak xnk ak akn jadi ngan new guy neyh sme mcm ak ngan yg laen. rndu kt kwan2 smua.tpi gulfie ak xdtg dmm kata nyer.tpi xpe best fren smua adew tdi.
hehehe.hapy larh wlupown kt kpala still serabut ngan mcm2 hal. rndu n syg kt dye still adew lg. tpi harusla ak igt yg dye bukan utk ak.
love u lots --->"AA"

harapan yg baru

ak akn cube prbaiki diri ak lg utk future n ak doakn smua nyer akn jadi lebih bagus.
wlupown ko slalu in my mind but ak akn cbe kuatkn hati utk diri ak. ak kena hormatkn diri ak. yess smua nya brpunca dari ak. ak yg salah phm atas smua yg brlaku. smua mslah dtg nyer dari ak. yess men!! ak bukan larh utk ko. and ak pown harus slalu ingt yg dye bukan utk ak. start from now ak akn cbe jadi mcm biase. UTK KO WAHAI TEMAN, AK DOAKN SMOGA HUBUNGAN KO NGAN DYE SUCCESS SMPI BILA2. AK AKN SENTIASA DOAKN YG TERBAEK UTK KO DAN DYE..
AK AKN HAPY KLU TGK KO POWN HAPY..
FRENS FOREVER KAY..
LOVE U LOTS ->>> "AA"

ak yg bingung.

knape ak jadi mcm neyh sendangkn dye xdew pape pown.
yess i noe adew org kate yg ak neyh terlmapau ikowtkn prasaan sndri n trlampau lebih2 dgn harapan yg xpernah akn adew. yess i noe i need to go through all dis alone, i shud not be like dis, yess i noe all dis is nonsense, smua org anggap ak neyh terhegeh2 kt dye sdangkn dye bwat xtau jerw ngna ak, knape???knapew??? knape??? adew org ckp dye xpenah bg harapan kt ak. so slame neyh ak jerw yg bodo ikowtkn sgt prasaan hati ak yg ngada2 neyh. dye xrse kerw apew yg ak rsekn skrg??
knape dye yg dtg dlm life ak skrg neyh dgn keadaan yg mcm neyh??
knpe dye xdtg dlm hidop ak sbgai seorg kwan yg btol2 ikhlas nk brkwan ngan ak.
ak pown xpernah mntx nk jadi mcm neyh tpi bila dh jadi nyesal xsudah.
dye baek smua adew kt dye.
ak cbe utk lpekn smua yg dh brlaku, bleh mmg bleh tpi hati berat utk lpekn dye.xtau knpe. always dye jerw dlm kpale ble ak alone. dh biasa bgun dari tdow msti nk col. mybe bnda tue ak kena kurangkn ckit.
i need fren yg nk dgr ak nyer feeling tpi smua nyermcm xinterested nk dgr.
dlu ak adew dye yg always advice ak mcm2 hal but now i already lost my fren yg bleh help me. i really need him ryte now. xdew spew nk tlong ak untuk bwak ak jmpe dye brdua n cerita smua nyer. wlupown terlka xpew jnji ak puas.
i alreadt lost my fren & already heart broken.
thanks and sory for everything dear.
love u lot!!

3.35 pm

sucks gler today when i noe dye akn dtg utk make it something that we need to do in a group. then tggu dye sbb he said that he would come on 3 pm to make this work.
suddenly ak dpt col from someone fon that he said he already smpi but still kt bwah nnti sy naek..wat the fucks are dear.i tggu u dari kul 1 until 3 but when u smpi kelam kabut ngan smua. sgguh mnyakitkn hati. bleh bwat mcm xdew pape happen jerw..
fuck gler. why i need to go through all dis alone..
why ak kena adew rse mcm neyh??
why dye xpenah nk luangkn ckit mse ngan ak sedangkn pg,ptg,siang,mlm ko asyik ngan dye.
wlupown stgh jam mse yg ak peruntukkn utk ko jmpe ngan ak itu pown xbrmkna ko adew mse untuk ak.
yess. i noe u are not mine. but please understanding about this feeling.
everyday i cry for this feeling but ade x u penah ambek kisah about me, or else.
come on larh syg.
i really mish you. xtau nk ngadu ckp kt spew lg. xdew org yg pernah phm i..
knape?? sy trlmpu ngade sgt kerw.. bleh dtg n pergi mcm tue jerw tdi. stupiddd...

5.30 am

trjaga nk g toilet ttbe trbace one of my msg sbb before sleep dew texting with someone then ttdo bgun pagi trjaga adew text dri my fren tue..
ak lgsg xbleh tdow after bace that msg.suddenly sume yg ak bwat with someone smua terpikir blk. knpe ak jdi smpi mcm neyh hgga kn ak lpe diri ak yg sbnar spew sblm neyh. ak xperlukn kwan yg ramai sbb ak neyh xsedia lg nk brkwn ngn org mcm dorg smua.ak xptt adew hati kt dye.sbb ak dh tau yg dye hak org laen. wlupown dye always advice ak jgn bwat mcm neyh jgn bwat mcm tue tpi he is still not mine, and i shud set on my mind yg ak xkn penah dpt dgn apew yg ak nk. yess now it happen again. ak cbe jadi yg lebih bgus dri sblm neyh utk brkwan ngan org laen tpi still same. knape yea bnda neyh happen again. yess ak yg lebih2, ak xptt adew prasaan mcm neyh ngan dye. i shud forget him for the rest of my life.ak kena lpe kn dye wlupown ak syg kn dye lebih dari seorg kwan.. i shud stop saying dat i love him. he also shud stop saying dat he love me if he never meant it. sy akn syg awk smpi sy mati. thanks for everythng.. i am so speechless dgn apew yg i dpt pg neyh n lgsg xbleh pkir apew2. ak kena jadi ak yg dlu. kena set kt mind gak yg dye lgsg xbagi harapan pape kt ak. come on larh joasnida. forget everything. lpe kn smua wlupown it takes time. stopfrom loving him utk semntara neyh.. jauh kn diri dari dri dye sementara neyh. ak ble brkwan ngn someone xpenah nyer nk jadi baek ble pghujung. before dis pown same gak.kwan bagi nk rak tpi last2 apew pown xdew. ak ikhlas niat nk brkwan tpi sometymes org xphm ak kowt. ak neyh lebih2 sgt kowt.. now i cannot sleep because of dis matter. always thinking bout him.. always my dear.alwaysss...
nk bwat apew pown xjadi ble always pkir kn hal kte.
ak rse bnda neyh rosakkn lg friendship kte brdua. if before dis ak xdew prasaan mcm neyh kn bgus. kwan jerw mcm biasa
just nk ckp awk sy btol2 syg awk, n akn sentiasa syg awk. thanks.
awk nk ckp apew awk ckp larh. jnji sy tau apew sbenaar nyer yg brlaku.
just bleh doakn yg terbaek utk awk ngan dye. loveyoumore my dear!!

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pagi bgun tdow today stress out smlm xabis lg.igtkn ble tdow smlm bleh larh lpekan smua nyer tpi still remain the same feeling.. arghhhhh.. still thinking bout him. knpew ngn dye. keindahan yg lme smua dh hilang. texting smlm pown xreply back. sy still thinking all those words yg awk ckp kt sy smlm. awk plsssss jadi mcm dlu blk.. sy xnk awk yg skrg.. mish you so much my dear.. always thinking bout you. hapy ckit ble pagi neyh bgun dpt text from him and ak trus col him. tpi still xangkat and i noe he still tdow lg.. its okayh. then try again and again and again. lastly bru dye pick up my col.. hahahaha
a bit release all the stress out tpi still pkir lg hal smlm. xbleh stop doing something. ak kena sibukkn diri ak dgn something yg bleh bwat ak lupekan dye.. loveyoumore my dear!!

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why suddenly you change?!?

everything yg jadi today spoil my day when someone suddenly col me and mcm bad mood ngan i today. i dun noe why..ak mnjadi lebih sedih ble dye ckp "ske larh hati" dgn nada yg ak rse ckup menyakitkn hati. for me dye seorg yg baek hati mybe dye adew probs trsendiri thats might be happen like dis. i am so sad dgn apew yg trjadi hari neyh. lgsg xdew mood dari tghari tdi until now.. for me he is everything to me. a very2 gud friends for me.
i dun wanna lost him. but i rse he never understand apew yg ak lalui sndiri wlupown depan mata dye sndiri. knpe u bwat mcm neyh??? dgn pew yg trjadi arie neyh sy cbe lebih tabah kn diri utk awk.. ak jadi lebih xtentu arah ble ptg bnda neyh mnjadi2 lebih teruk ble dye col.. xtau nk share mcm mnew lg. ckup larh hanya ak dan dia jerw yg tau..
my dear im so sory for everything. i doakan yg teerbaek utk you and your gf..
i akn sentiasa doakn yg terbaek for both of you..
take gud care of ur gf..
hope dye pown akn jage awk dgn lebih baek.. xske tgk org laen saketkn awk wlupown sy baru kenal awk tpi sy xske tgk org bwat awk mcm tue..
hope dye xmcm2 ngan awk..
loveyoumore my dear!!!

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continue story ptg tdi.

then after that dye lgsg mcm xnk lyan ak.
asl ewk dye mcm tue.
ak cbe untk jadi kwan yg trbaek tapi dye mybe xphm. ak cube nk jadi gf trbaek tpi dye jugak xphm. now he never pick up my col.dun noe apew yg happen ryte now between me and dye. mish the way he talk with me mcm dlu, mish the way he sing to me before i sleep, mish he said 'loveyoumore' before and after i sleep, mish dye smile kt ak, everything yg dye bg kt ak slame ak brkwan dgn dye adalah keindahan yg xkn dpt kt mnew2.
huh!! sedih lak ttbe. tpi sometyme tgk dye mcm okayh.why my dear.why???? why u do like dis to me?? i xptt adew feeling mcm neyh ngan u dear. hate all dis coz im alone to get through all dis. i really mish u yg dlu, yg i dew probs u always give advice to me to help me too be cool on dat situation.. npew suddenly u change. i xphm sgt npew u jadi mcm neyh. i neyh slalu susah kn u kerw??
i really need u now. u leh lak kuar tpi u ckp u tdow kt umah. what the hell is going on with us ryte now??
could u tell me why all dis happen to us??
plss come and talk to me personally about ur problems..
i bleh phm.please~~

lovely morning!!!

smlm col someone dlm kul 4 lebih mcm tue. then when i col him dye mcm mrah. dun noe why he suddenly change mcm tue.sbb before dat adew jmpe lepak skali mkn2 kt kdai mkn bwah tue.hemph. then after col him ak text message to him dgn mengatakn
"sory awk if sy adew bwat silap dgn awk" ak.
then dye senyap xckp pape pown.
suddenly dye text me back
"npe tdi??" someonea
"npe?? xdew pape!! ak
"busy" someone
"ha'ah busy!! ak
"xpe la.sory ggu" someone
then dye col burak2 jp tpi mybe i yg lebih2 kowt dtas why after that col dye xangkt..
hemph xpew larh awk..
then mlm col xangkt2 smpi rse nk g tmpt yg dye stay now and mrah knape dye xpick up my col..
then around 11.30 baru angkt dye bleh ckp sory xbwak fon
around 5 am he col me syg.
arghhhh. so sweet..
continue nnti..
daaaaaaaaaaa.

hal dye lg!!!

smakin hari smakin mnjadi lak hubungan ak ngan dye neyh.xtau knpe ko jdi sebegini skali..ak cube utk mmperbaiki blk apew yg dh trjadi tpi ko slalu push ak soh mcm tue soh cmni..ak dh bwat yg sehabis baek mungkin utk our relation..tpi still xbleh go on lg. tlg larh brubah ke arah yg lebih bagus dari hari neyh..
mmg ak syukur dgn perubahan yg ko tunjuk kn skrg tpi ak xrse yakin dgn apew yg ko bwat skrg..prangai ko mnjadi2 skrg.. bkn brtmbh baek tpi mnjadi lebih truk dari sblm neyh..
tlg larh fahami diri ak wahai lelaki..
wat a bad day..smua org mcm nk mrah2 ngan ak..
damn!!!

everyone adew problem tersendiri..

mcm2 hal happen today.
dgn class nyer,dpt kwan baru lg.
hapy+saket dgn apew yg trjadi dgn hari neyh & semalam..
smlm nmpk benda yg xptt ak nmpk.. and ak dh ready dgn smua neyh. ak dh ckup ready dgn apew yg terjadi smlm.. wlupown skjap tpi adew rase nyer babe.. tpi tgk dorg brckp smlm nmpk cm sweet jerw. xpew larh kena accept larh dgn apew yg dh trjadi smlm. then ptg ckit g karaoke with all my fren wlupown baru baek dari saket.
hapy sgt sbb dpt bilik BESAR. hahahahahahaha. berlari2 ak kt dlm tue.
hapy larh xtau nk described cmne dgn keadaan smlm.
lovely jerw hari smlm.
cume hari neyh rse xhappy sbb dgr crita mcm2 dari kwan2.
adew yg brkwan tpi iri hati, padahal brkwan mcm nk gler tpi rupe2 nyer adew something yg di lindung kn dlm diri dye..
we as a fren shud be honest if adew something yg rse kurg senang..
for me, if brkwan tpi still adew prasaan kurang elok tue bwak2 larh brbincang..
jgn nk pendam2.
sbb kte kwan.special mcm mne pown org laen nk treat kwan kte tue biarkan larh.
kte sbgi kwan ptt rase senang ble kte tgk kwan kte hapy & senang dgn keadaan dye skrg.. no matter wat happen ak harap xdew larh kwan2 ak yg brkwan dgn ak skrg adew prangai mcm neyh.hope smua nyer okayh. tlong larh brubah wahai kwan ku yg bwat kwan ku tue.. apew pown keindahan yg smlm diberikan hanyalah sementara..

problems come again.

XLARAT dh nk menanggung hati & perassan yg saket..
XLARAT dh nk pkir2 & rase dgn apew yg lelaki wat kt diri kita
XLARAT nk hadap semua ble hati & perasaan kte sendiri dpermainkan dgn senang..
XLARAT bila ak sorg trpakse tanggung & lalui benda neyh sendiri..
XLARAT nmpk & dpt msg mengatakan yg dye dgn gf dy..
XLARAT bila trpakse pretend yg sebenar nyer kte neyh okayh padahal hati saket sgt bila dpt tau..
smua neyh hanya larh perasaan kte bila kita adew perasaan terhadap seseorg
tpi ble kte dh dpt hope yg tggi kenapa dorg neyh ske sgt pergi mcm tue jerw then bwat2 mcm xkenal..
wat he fuck arr..
bkn larh ak neyh hadap sgt dgn apew yg ko bg tpi ko ptt phm dgn apew yg kita lalui wlupown skjap tpi kesan dye amat brmkne..
still remember with all those words yg awk slalu sgt ckp ngan sy after bgun dari tdo n sblm tdo..
keindahan yg awk xkn sy dpt dari mnew2 org selain awk..
sy tau awk dh brpunya tpi sometymes hope yg awk bg menyeksakn diri saya & sy trpaksa tggung bnda neyh sorg2 tnpa awk..
knape suddenly bnda neyh happen to us..
tlg larh jadi blk diri awk yg dlu..
our relation neyh sgt2 hancurkn friendship kte before dis..
sy nyesal gler ble adew prasaan mcm neyh ngan awk..
thanks for all the happiness yg awk bg kt saya yg dh nk hampir sbulan..
thank you ASy...

heshh dun noe nk write pew lg!!

dri last week lg mcm2 hal jadi xtau pehal ngan ak.
a lot of thing happen to me. feel sad dgn kematian one of my dad fren
cannot described the feeling from the day yg happen to him until the day yg mmbawa dye ke sana..
big2 problem also happen to me on the same day.
dgn dye & gf dye nyer hal, ngan ak yg rse mcm still xteratur xterurus dgn semester baru.
mcm2 hal berlaku xtau mcm mnew nk handle all dis sorg2.
sometymes we try to help others eventhough dye bwat hal ngan ak tpi org yg xmemahami kehendak ak mmg sukar nk trima dgn apew yg ak nk bwat or tolong dorg..
bkn xnk share spew yg bwat hal and make me become like dis.
cume xnk aib kn org.
only certain2 peps yg noe bout dis.
im trying to give the best for him and you.
hard to handle alone all dis matter.
nk share ngan org takowt org ckp yg ak neyh always dew probs, always nk story hal2 mcm neyh takowt adew sesetgh org yg xbleh trima bnda neyh.
for me hal yg ak dpt today sgt bg impak yg besar kt ak wlupown adew org xtau n nk ak always laugh with them..
hal xkn berlaku klu adew prsefahamn antara dua2 org tue..
its okayh im trying the best to settle all this.
and try to trima all the coming bad words from her!
hope dye lebih trbuka dari skarg sbb ak rase ko lg matang dari ak umur pown dh 22 years old.jgn nk slalu sgt maen kn hati org..
jgn nk ugut2 org dgn hal2 mcm mnew ko bwat kt lelaki tue..
utk ko ak just nk pesan klu betol apew yg ko adew skarg neyh adalah kepunyaan, tanggungjawab dye ko tunjuk kn bukti yg dye btol2 kena tanggung bnda neyh..
klu ko dh test everything and menunjukkn yg tue adalah hak dye yessss ak lepaskn dye utk satu tggjwab yg besar utk diri ko and the new comers..
ko nursing and u shud know about this matter..
think twice klu nk bwat org mcm tue!!!!

he's mistake or my mistake..

always argue bout small thing.
sometymes happy but sometymes hate it.
fedup everything smua adew.
tpi mish gler ble alwys kena marah or gado bnda2 yg xptt di ckpkn..
dye always rse yg ak xptt jadi diri ak skrg tpi ak rse yg dye xske the way that i behave ryte now..
heheheh.
wan amirul aizat please understand bout my self..
now i mention ur name..
mish u and cant wait to meet up with u..
but for this 1weeks anything can happen kn dear!!
ermmm..
sory for all that happen to you this 3 weeks.
im glad to see u..
sometimes jerw yg fedup ngan u..
hhahahahhahahaha..
jgn mrh..
imyfdsm my dear..
u always said to me "smua org pena bwat salah, tpi skali kte dh bwat slah take advantage dgn apew kte da bwat silap"..
tol x???
heheheh. i akn cbe pew yg terbaek utk relation kte yg xtau apew2..
thanks and cant wait to see u..

hapy!!

now mybe dh almost 1month dh kwan ngan dye..
im happy with him.
really hapy..
cume sometimes adew gak argue about small thing.
mish him.
always count the day for next week..
hapy.cannt described the happiness yg dapat dari dye bg.
thanks to him..

new guy!!

today story.
membawa kebahagian kt diri ak.
forget wat happen before dis.
start with new.
someone smile at me.
new guy with new things.
might be a good things to me..
his cute, rmbut dye bulat, chumel sgt, new student, kulit coklat2.
not too dark not too bright.
sederhana sahaja.
but watever it is he is still cute.
always smile at me bila dye nmpk ak.
hepl me to found out who is this guy!!!
NEW STUDENT OKAYH..
hapy gler..
lupakan yg lame yg smua bwat xtau ngan ak.
hampeh....
but still hapy..
arghhhhhh!!!!
nonsense kn.

funny+penyesalan+simpati!!

dis week,last monday, ak kena pegi class with public transpotation.
so im going to tren putra at jelatek and naek around 12.40 pm.
so ak smpi at taman bahagia around 1.10 pm somthing..
that is the most worst day that i have for the whole life.
something happen to me at jelatek station.im going to buy a tickets for taman bahagia station at kelana jaya.
so, at that tyme nobody around there except me.
so ak g counter and said "taman bahagia, please" so the penjaga counter click2 and give the tickets to me and i give the money.
ttbe mse pnjaga counter tue nk bg my balance money dye mcm pegang balance money tue kuat and cakap nk my phone numbers.
so i decide not to give to him.
im trying to pull that money sbb nk cpt.
then dye xbg juga my money.
then dye keep my money 5second somthing and tulis number cellphoe dye.
wat a ridiculous man..
stupid gler rse.
then dye ckap please call me and i said "i dunot have a crdt at that tyme."
ckap xdew crdt lg dye xbg my money.
then ak mcm talk loud to him baru dye bg blk.
ak ckp mcm neyh "tolong bg duit tue and i'll call u later or if u didn't do that ak akn shout kte dye trying to do something with me.
so spe2 yg naek tren kt jelatek be careful ar coz korg akn dpt number lelaki yg hebat neyh.hahahahhaha.
after naek tren then dh smpi kt my destination.
adew lg satu happen to me..
xtau nk ckp mcm mnew tpi mmg tol2 jadi.
adew one guy naek tren sme gak ngan ak(he said larh) smpi kt same destination ask me to join him naek teksi sme2 pergi kt our college.
so i decide okayh sbb kteorg satu college ak penah nmpk dye tpi dye ak xtau.
dye busy to change money and i wait around there.
so ak tnye "mne satu yg nk naek neyh?"
dye kte "mne2 larh yg depan kowt."
so ak pown naek larh teksi tue.
then i guest dye nk naek kt depan and so ak duduk larh blakang.
tiba2, bila ak close pintu sebelah kanan teksi yg ak naek tue,
teksi driver tue trus jalan tanpa tggu that guy yg ajak ak join him tdi.
kesian gler kt dat guy tertinggal kt situ.
pas tue cter kt member2 jadi bahan ar.
dh smpi pegi class tpi xprint note accounting management, kena halau lak.
she said "who are do not have my notes please leave my class now!"
so ak pown trus blah larh.
truk kn arie isnin tue..
xnk dh anything happen mcm tue lg..
SERAM!!!!!!

new day with new problem.

hate that guy yg always hidup dgn penipuan.
ak xsangka yg ko seorg lelaki yg ske sgt menipu ak seorg gurl yg bodo gler sbb prcye kn all words yg ko ckp kt ak.
wlupown ko dh pegi kat dat gurl xsemesti nya ko dh btol2 jadi seorg lelaki yg baek.
org mcm ko neyh mmg xpenah akn dpt hidop aman mcm org laen.
ak harap hidup ko xsempurna sesempurna nya org laen dgn kehidupan dorg..
syg mcm mnew pown ak kt diri ko selama neyh.
ak akn tetap doakn kebahagiaan ko dsbbkn si kecik yg xtau apew2 pasal kte.
smuga ko hidop dgn kebahagian yg ko adew.
tpi ak hrp apew yg ko bwat,apew yg ko tpu ak slame neyh akn adew balsan nyer satu hari yg akan dtg.
ko tolong larh brubah wahai lelaki.
ak akn sentiase doakn akan adew keindahn dan kebahagian dlm idup ko dan si kecik yg xtau apew..
dsbbkn si kecik tue larh ak rse kte ptt end kn our relation smpi sini jerw..
i will always remember you..
and i know u pown mcm tue cme kte xbleyh nk teruskn hubungan neyh lg sbb si kecik akn muncul dm idup you bila2 mse jerw..
i rse i ptt leave you ryte now to avoid me from heartbrooken again.
congrats to both of you.
so happy si kecik akn dtg idop u..
CONGRATULATION!!

LELAKI!

saket hati bila lelaki yg ske ayat baek nyer ngan perempuan because of something..
hate all words yg kluar dari mulut guys out there yg xikhlas nk befren ngan kte..why all dis happen to us as a women.
really hate all the stuff and words yg dorg ckp tpi xappreciated kte.
be gud with each other.always respect us as women..

xtau knape korg bwat mcm neyh ngan kte as a women.
eventhough adew our best fren pown still do it the same things to us.
kdg2 rse down ngan member yg always kena cheat ngan lelaki yg xgne.
dorg actually okayh cme mybe of somethg that they really want from us yg mmbwat kn dorg jadi mcm neyh.
kdg2 xphm knape jadi mcm neyh.
be nice with us.

hate all lelaki yg dew relation ngan ak.
also all myfren.
thanks to smua lelaki yg always bwat ktorg mcm terpinga2,trfkir2 asl korg bwat mcm neyh..

aku dan kamu

ternyata dye lgsg xbrubah.ske gler tuduh yg bkn2 kt ak witout asking me first..
xphm larh..
ske sgt dgr ckap org.org melayu neyh smua mcm tue.
tnye larh baek2 jgn tuduh melulu jerw.
xpsal2 ak yg kena.
laen kali xtau cter yg sbenar jgn tuduh2.
ak ckup nympah ngan org yg mcm neyh..
come on dear!!
jgn nk dgr ckp org jmpe i dlu i akn explain evrythg ngan u.
jgn nk ckp i bwat cter bkan2 kt u.
matang ckit.
dun be so childish!!

my gurl!!

smlm ak rse the most best day ever coz' dpt meet up with all my fren yg lme dri skull rendh ag. mcm2 hal trjadi.wlupown xrami tpi still adew fun uh!!
first kte org g mkn kt FULLHOUSE,yap kwan seng!!
mkn2 till 5 o'clock something then kte org pegi wangsa walk karaoke!!
best gler karok smpi xingt dunia..
wlupown anna sibuk ngan camera and pengiraan duit dye ngan wee tyme karaoke tue. yg best nyer anna xbleh berhenti ckp smpi kteorg smua xlarat nk glak ngan dye yg asyik brckp n wat lawak xbtol tue..
msih gler.
dh abis karok kte org jln2 jp pas uh g minum2 kn NZ curry house.
so next planning kteorg nk g malacca holiday enam2 org kt sne nnti..
i need to mention bout dis sbb ak hapy gler ngan korg smlm..
best sgt tgk all people hapy.
wlupown sometyme kte rse trlmpu bnyk kekurangan yg adew dlm diri neyh..
arie neyh open FB mcm2 benda menyakitkn hati adew.
yg dh 'kwan' ngan ak tpi bleyh antar words yg make us down as a women pown adew gak.
yg 'kawan' lebih ngan kita tpi bleyh post somthg kt wall with words yg saket kn hati pown adew..
plz think twice if nk post somethg kt wall.
it might be hurt utk org laen!!
neway, hapy gler hangout with fren yesterday!!
lega sbb dpt cter smua ngan dorg bout hal2 sblm neyh!!!
argghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

haish perempuan!!

just want to say be watch to dat gurl..
tlong larh brubah utk diri ko ngan bf ko yg xbrape hebat uh!!
ak wlupown xrpt ngan ko tgk ko pown dh meluat..
mcm ko sorg jerw adew bf.org laen pown dew bf.ak dlu pown adew bf gak tpi xdew la smpi nk kongkong2,xbg kwan ngan gurl laen smua..
come on ar!!
dh besar ar fikir matang ckit.
jgn ingt ko dew bf ko kuat ar babe!!
tolong jgn bwat cter kt member ak yg bkn2.
kte dye mcm2 ar..
mls ar nk mentioned kt sni sure klu ko bce nnti trase.
ko akn tau yg ak ckp neyh diri ko.
ak adew gak hati perot.
ko tlg jgn ckp hal org.ko tgk gak diri ko tue.
kdg2 org sekeliling ko uh adew gak bf org..
yg ko kwan2 tue smua adew gak bf org..
klu ak pergi mampos ar nk brkwan ngan spew.
laki org kerw,bf org kerw,tunang org kerw smua2 larh..
yg nk adew2 kn limit tue pehal??
bf ko tue hak ko kerw??
ikatan xdew pape bkn hak ko larh weyh..
perempuan2.
tolong larh sedarkn diri ko uh..
jgn nk ckp org friendly terover larh apew larh..
g lantak ar dye nk kwan ngan spew.
my fren smua mmg friendly..
ko tue jerw yg xtau nk brekwan n cmpur ngan org.
yg ko tau berkepit ngan bf org..
single lg senang la weyh..
get ready ar..ak dpt tau ko story sal ak.
ko tau ar betina xtau malu,gedik.....

wondering plus hapy

arie neyh mcm happy sgt dpt jmpe with all old fren since standart 1.smua dpt distukn kembali..dis week dew reunion ;lak.can't wait nk jmpe with them.smlm mybe somethg bad happen to me as a gurl..but today hope he will never come again to my life. always gave me hope to do somethg but never know bout my feelings.
how could dis happen??
did i so stupid or confused about wat is really happen to me yesterday???
ermmmm. i also dun know bout that.
still want to know why did he sanguup bwat mcm neyh kt ak..
ape yg dye nk kn dari ak pown ak xtau..
kte rindu tue smua ak rse LIAR.
im trying harder to avoid all those people yg mcm neyh tpi still adew jerw lg org2 mcm neyh.
pelik sgt!!!
neway xsbr nk tggu someone lik dari jauh mybe next week.
arghhhhhh.
always count the day!!!
mish gler kt dye!!
today is june 9th 2010..
another 7days utk jmpe with him..
can't wait!!!!

hemph!!

awesome nyte!!
if people knew sape ak yg sbenar, i guess people will get away from me!!
especially a guy..
someone told me lelaki always want somethg from me..
im trying to faham kn wat did she/he really talking about..
now i know wat they really want from us!!
but not all of them yg mcm uh.
lelaki kdg2 bwk bnyk probs yg memeningkn kepala kte sbgai seorg perempuan.
tapi dgn dorg jugak larh yg kte easy utk talking, share story, change story,hangout 2gether.
tpi xphm jugak if kte brkwan biase tpi ble lme2 feeling akn dtg jugak..
ak pown xphm adew one of my fren dlu yg brkwan tpi rapat sgt..
then ttbe jadi huru-hara dsbbkn feeling yg comes from our heart..
nk ckp kte prempuan xptt brkwan ngan lelaki xbest gak..
kte harus lebih pndi utk brkwan n control our self from all those thing,feeling and more..
but for me lantak larh apew orh nk ckp tntg ak..
sbb org xtau ak neyh mcm mne.
ak bkn larh jenis yg easy to take advantage cme ak kdg2 confused why smua lelaki kdg2
bleyh brubah dlm skjap..
nk kate bodoh lelaki nyer mentally lg bagus kowt..
tpi ntah larh LELAKI kn always feel yg dorg the best and they can do wat ever they want..
neway,im so hapy last week..
the whole week mcm something happen to me yg xpenah akn dpt smpi ble2..
cannot described the happiness yg ak dpt the whole week..

so glad!!

im so glad that he pick my cal..

happy sgt..smpi kn trsengeh2 seorg2.

xtau sgt..kadang2 kte rse yg those people yg befren with us be4 dis dh forget to us but mybe they are really bz ryte now or hal laen..

so please stop thinking nonsense to all..

but i can't stop thinking nonsense..

bkn slalu pkir bkn2 cme ak nyer level confident trlalu rendah utk lelaki..

tpi mcm2 hal gak larh ngan lelaki.

adekn yg back to life yg lpas with exgf pown dew gak..

sometymes honestly ak nk befren ngan dat guy as a fren but mybe dye ingt yg ak neyh mcm terhegeh2 kt dye..

so please stop thinking like dat..

just want to befren with u..

but to him, thanks u so much burak2 ngan i last nyte..

hapy sgt..can't forget u burak2 ngan i..

so sory coz always thinking nonsense with you..

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

hapy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

problem come again!!

always dew problem ak neyh.busan dh ngan jntan yg bodo2 smua.xdew mkne nyer nk dijaga elok2 lg.smua xgne.i need someone to talk.bf wat hal lg.hahahahhahaha.klakar tol larh.org laen dew gak relation but ak always dew problem yg xtau nk kate apew dh..

sometyme dorg neyh xphm apew yg kte nk.ble dh susah baru terhegeh2 nk cari kte.dh senang kte dilupakan.dun know wat happen to him.ak rse yg dye bkn larh yg terbaik utk ak.baru larh ak sedar yg dye bkan larh disediakan utk ak..

kadang2 ak xphm knape dorg neyh as a men lgsg xpenah nk pikir btol2 tentang decision yg dorg nk bwat.ak ckup2 xphm.kadang2 yg baru kwan tue okeyh.tpi 2-3 minggu befren dh lost contct, adew lak yg dh kwan berbulan2 tpi ttbe kte ak xptt bwat mcm ney mcm tue.. what the f*** !!

ak cme nk brkwan bkn nk flirt2 pown ngan korg.jgn larh jadikan isu lak..when all dis happen ak smpikan mls nk berkwan ngan org smua.asl dorg neyh lelaki kadang2 pemikiran lame gak..

bkn nk ckp apew ar.cme korg kena larh pndai2 pikir.lelaki kena matang laki.kena matang dari pelbagai segi.nk berkawan dgn lelaki larh yg paling best nut sometymes adew yg bleyh bwak kwan,adew yg xleyh bwak kwan.dorg neyh pemikiran cetek kadang2 tapi xtau larh kena tgk gak sesetgh individu tue.org klu tau erti berkwan tue dye okeyh jerw but klu org yg xtau erti kwan tue yg ske maen2 pompuan sne sni mmg x ar nk wat kwan..

so,rumusan nyer.hahahahha.rumusan nyer lelaki skrg kena lebih matang jgn larh pikir pompuan neyh yg bukan2.nk ber kawan ngan lelaki neyh sbb gatla kerw apew..to my lovey dovey yg dh x lovey lg pls make ur decision dgn brfikir dlu.i think u will regret for wat did u do to me last nyte.hunn x akn lpe apew yg u ckp n u bwat kt hunn last nyte.pls change urself..

to him from her!!

to my bf pls change ur self.today rse mcm damn sgt when somebody call me mgatakn yg dye gf baru my bf..i dun know why all dis happen to me.try to understnad him.tapi ape pown xjadi..asl org laen leyh hidop ngan okeyh..org laen nyer relation smua best2..bby i hrap yg laen dari u..hope sgt u can change me!! hunn xtau nk bwat mcm mnew lg ngan u..

sometyme we as a women try to be as perfect as he want but tau2 jerw larh..hunn xtau npew u always like dis..smua yg i kwan smua jadi mcm neyh.smua tau nk more from me..sory xlyan bnda2 mcm tue..to all guys please respect us as a women..xbleyh larh nk bwat sesuka hati korg..

siap fight for this love babe!!
hahahaha
dat gurl siap kate yg u sibuk nk dgn dye..wat the hell is going on rite now??
dye siap suruh hunn tinggal kn u lg my dear bf..
i ajak dye jmpe but she refused and tolak dgn mgatakan takot u marh if dye jmpe ngan hunn..
u, kte mybe xspendapat but im trying to be the best for u..
dye jugak mgatakan yg dye willing to do everything for u..
dye siap kte yg u always ckp hunn neyh always marah2 u..
u,hunn dh bwat ape yg u nk..
so pls respect me as ur gf also respect her as a women..
jgn nk maen2 kn dye lg..
dtg jmpe hunn & we talk about it okay dear!!
hunn tggu b!!

to dat gurl ak tau ko kenal ak, always tgk FB page ak..
and ak kenal ko siapa..jgn nk ugut2 ak soh tggl kn my bf..
ko tlg stay away from him..
nk berkawan xpew more than dat xbleyh ar dear..
ak pown bnyk kwan ngan lelaki yg dh dew gf, dh dew istri but we need to know our batas2 pergaulan ble brkwan dgn org2 yg mcm neyh..
laen larh xdew org punyer lantak ko ar nk bwat apew..
ak tau sometyme ko text him soh dye pungut ko kt tmpt keja smua.
ko igt dye driver ko..
ko klu bagus sgt xpew.prangai mcm apew jerw.klu prangai okeyh ak xkesah ko nk bf aku tpi prangai elok ka leyh ar lepaskn bf ak kat ko tpi klu prangai mcm hampeh xpyah ar dear..
lpekan apew yg ko impikn dari dye..

TO ALL LADIES OUT THERE, PLEASE KNOW ABOUT UR STATUS AND TRY TO BE NICELY IF NK BEFREN DGN ORG2 YG DH BERPUNYER NEYH..
BERKAWAN SMUA NYER OKEYH BUT KENA TAU MCM MNE NK BWAK DIRI BLE BERKWAN NGAN ORG YG DH BERPUNYER OKAY!!

welcome to me!!!

baru jerwtry bwat blog neyh..
still in learning!!
biase ar bdak xpandai!!!